battling this first draft

A big problem I have with writing long-ish papers is the fact that I at some point have to go back and read what I wrote. I hate doing this because I usually only notice how stupid I sound. So it's good that I have this writing group, because they can read it for me and tell me how much it doesn't make sense and I can fix things without tirelessly re-reading my ramblings so much.

I need to email my group a draft of my paper today, and it is nowhere near ready for human consumption. I just opened the document and sort of shuddered because I didn't even want to look at the thing. I know what I want to write about, sort of, but actually doing it is a struggle. Searching through the jumble of words I've already written to find the perfect spot to insert whatever new thought entered my brain while I was unable to fall asleep. But I am working on it.